My guy is away for a family matter. Like out of the country and its killing me. I never realized how selfish I am because he said two weeks and that should be enough but it's not. I want to be able to hear his voice and make sure hes okay. We can go two weeks without seeing one another sometimes because of work and busy schedules but at least I could call. I feel like I'm being tortured because I cant stop missing him but there is nothing I can do about it but wait. It makes me wonder why is it so hard for me? He has to know that I'm over here going crazy.
I had a great week hanging with my home girls partying and celebrating my daughter. It was very fulfilling, but I cant party every night just to distract my brain from wondering. Smh, I think I have 4 more days until he's back. I wish I could pretend that I didn't break a sweat but it would be a lie. He is someone that I don't want to be without. I guess that's the answer to my question. Its hard for me to relax while he's away because not talking to/seeing him feels to much like my fear of having to be without him.